-this is exceptionally important for me to realize....I don't practice what I preach. I know why I do art. I just let the thoughts that "I suck" get in the way. I have a unique way of thinking that some people would call artistic. because of this i feel good when i express it through art. Also I need to realize once again that art is about the doing more than it is the end result. I mean yeah its nice when you complete something that you are really proud of but in the end it is the trance like state that I enter when I do art that really intrigues me. I feel like a small god when I'm in the right mind set and doing art. don't take that the wrong way....I'll explain....we think of god as a creator....and what we live in is his ever changing masterpiece, so naturally when I create something I feel like a small portion of that divine force. its like my mind is the clusters of hot gasses that made the universe and when I create I'm shaping that mass into forms that express what my being really looks like. I do believe in souls and mostly its because of art. everyone has their own unique way of drawing, painting, writing, thinking , etc. Its like fingerprints. unique to your own being. I realize that most of the way I think is conditioned learning from watching others but what made me choose what I did to create who I am today? The ghost in the machine I think. My soul. the seer that chooses what kind of being he wants to be. Idk. maybe i'm just a hippie but this is what makes sense in my head. and I don't find anything wrong with pursueing what enlightens me as long as it doesn't hurt someone else.



how do I let go and just embrace all my thoughts and start doing art all the time?